We stopped for a year while my mother was ill, and I am rusty
Looking for somebody willing to begin slowly with a woman who has forgotten how
We stopped for a year while my mother was dying, and I have found starting again far harder than starting the first time. I did not expect that and neither did my husband.
The year itself was not complicated. I had nothing to give anybody, I said so, and the man I had been seeing was decent about it and drifted off, which was the right outcome. What surprised me is what came afterwards. I emerged older, more tired, much less interested in anything that requires me to be charming, and far less willing to spend an evening on somebody I do not already like.
Forty three, Queens, married fifteen years, four of them like this before the pause. So the version I want now is smaller and slower. Long conversations, a meeting that is only a meeting, and no expectation that I will be the person I was two years ago. My husband has been in all of it throughout and was the one who suggested I write this rather than wait for the mood to return on its own.
I am also aware that I might get halfway and stop, and I would rather say so in advance than surprise somebody with it.
Not looking for anyone who will treat last year as a subject. It is not a story I want to tell. Not looking for anyone in a hurry. Not looking to be told I will feel better once I am back out there.
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