I called an evening off halfway through, and here is what that was like
Looking for somebody who would hear no at half past ten and simply find his coat
I called it off halfway through last November. Nothing had happened that I had not agreed to. I simply stopped wanting to be there, said so, asked him to leave, and he did, and he was gracious about it, and I spent the following fortnight feeling as though I had done something unforgivable.
I had not. That took a while and a lot of conversation at home to land properly. I am writing about it here because everybody talks about consent as though it happens at the start of an evening, and the version that actually matters is the one at half past ten when you have changed your mind and everyone has made an effort.
Thirty five, Queens, married seven years, two of them like this. What I want now is somebody who has heard a version of this and has an answer that is not a speech. The men who reassure me most are the ones who say something short and slightly bored about it, as though of course, obviously, what else would anybody do.
My husband is at home for all of it and I would call him from anywhere at any hour without a second thought.
Not looking for anyone who will tell me at length how understanding he would be. Not looking to explain November again. Not looking for anyone who thinks an agreement made on a Wednesday is binding on a Saturday.
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