Chastity and orgasm denial discussion

Hi everyone, I apologize for the delay in posting; real life has been quite busy this week, and I needed some time to process what happened last weekend. For those who missed my intro post, I was locked up for several days during the previous week. It was one of those rare times when my Girlfriend had possession of the key. I mentioned that things might not go exactly as planned, which turned out to be partially true. Unfortunately, she arrived at my place last Saturday night after having a couple of large brandies, and we hadn’t eaten yet. We ordered takeaway food. While waiting for it, she drank a large glass of wine, just like I did, although I had been sipping slowly since it was my big moment. When the food arrived, she barely touched hers. After eating, more wine was poured, and I didn’t realize she was getting drunker than me. One minute she was kissing me, making me twitch inside my CB, declaring that ‘A long night!’ awaited us—I was so excited! The next moment, everything went wrong; she became wobbly and unwell. Soon after, we were arguing while she threw up. It was the worst possible outcome for the special night I had waited all week to enjoy. She ended up crying, apologizing repeatedly for ruining my evening. I held her, reassured her it was fine, and looked after her until she went to bed. I curled up next to her, still locked in place. The next morning, she was very apologetic and immediately started feeling playful. My dick swelled inside the tube as she pressed against me and kissed me deeply. Although not quite like the previous evening, she still wanted to tie me up and tease me. Naturally, I went along with it happily. There were several mind-blowing moments, things I’d never experienced before, such as her lying on top of me in sexy pink underwear, rubbing her crotch against my locked cock while laughing and calling it a ‘little clit’. She kissed me, put her tongue in my ear, squeezed my balls, saying I was only allowed a little dribble because she was going to cum. She lay with her head near my feet, then draped a leg across my chest and used her Rampant Rabbit vibe on herself while my cock throbbed. Listening to her moans was absolute music to my ears. Then she unlocked the CB and removed it, gave my penis a good wash, and started teasing me until I was rock hard. Eventually, she got on top of me and slid my erection inside her. It felt heavenly, and I managed to hold on for about 15 minutes, but eventually knowing I was near the edge, I asked, ‘Please may I cum, Mistress?’ Of course, she said ‘No!’, but just her tone and the fact that she refused made me even more excited. As she got off me, the friction caused me to shoot my load across my belly and chest. She called me useless, then finished herself using the vibe before untying me. We held each other for a long time; it was very emotional. I was grateful that she had made the effort, even if things hadn’t gone exactly according to plan. I felt relieved to be out of the CB and have my orgasm, but everything was over now—all that anticipation finished. We ended up having a lovely, intense, close fuck, and I performed much better than lately; I felt so intensely horny again. We discussed the experience, and I told her it hadn’t really been worth the roughly four days of discomfort in the CB600. I find this device awkward and uncomfortable to wear for more than a few hours at a time, not to mention hygiene issues. I tried to keep it as clean as possible, but she said it smelled very ‘ripe’ when she took it off, which almost put her off the whole thing. I mentioned that next time we play like this, I would stay chaste by willpower all week and just lock myself up for a couple of hours before she arrived. I’m slightly disappointed with myself; I’ve craved chastity for years, yet now I seem to be treating it as an occasional game? I’m not entirely sure how I feel right now. Do I need a more comfortable CB? Maybe the Birdlocked? I spoke to my G/F last night and said those feelings had passed out of my system for the moment, which is partly true; I haven’t masturbated much this week and haven’t thought too much about D/s and chastity activities, but I know those feelings will return. When my imagination runs wild, I fantasize about a life similar to Bridget’s: permanent chastity, feminized, plugged, cuckolded, and spanked regularly. I haven’t told her all of this—well, maybe cuckolding has been mentioned in a teasing, lighthearted way—and I’ve had the occasional spanking, but she’d probably be shocked if I said something like, ‘I’d like to suck your lover’s cock to get him hard for you while staying locked up for months at a time’. I guess I’m rambling now, so I’ll stop there. Thanks for listening; any feedback is gratefully received. Bye for now, Dave.