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I’m somewhat surprised to find myself here today. My wife and I are a standard heterosexual couple with teenage children, living that typical busy suburban life. She is quite vanilla and has a lower libido than mine. Our problems seem like an old tale: too occupied to give our relationship the time it deserves, leading to some neglect, until I fall into a cycle of handling my own needs more often (with the internet serving as my outlet for porn). Because she is so traditional, introducing CB was tricky using a 6000 model, but I really needed her back. I felt that breaking the cycle I had entered required help, and I hoped she would take some positive steps toward our relationship.

I have never truly seen myself as submissive or my wife as dominant. (I believe) I am willing to surrender control if it helps us. Also, there was a slight chance she might enjoy being in charge. She has subtly used her charms to successfully curb, or even make impossible, most of the kinky activities I periodically want to try (which frustrates me). Well, she didn’t quite grasp or adapt to the CB situation. The last six months have been a chaotic ride. Our recent fight was severe, and surprisingly, she finally read one of the resources I had directed her at. (Yes, until then, she consulted any adult material).

That evening, she told me she visited the website I pointed out and asked some questions, like do you really want to be locked up overnight? and does it say here that I am supposed to let you have only one orgasm a week? She then asked me to retrieve the CB and hand her the key. From what she read, this was meant for her pleasure and enjoyment, which is what would occur.

It hasn’t been a full week yet, but it feels like a switch has flipped. She makes me lock up every morning before work (and she checks), teasing me several times by saying I won’t get released or that she read I should tend to her while locked up. This morning after my lock-up, exactly what she did! I know this isn’t much by the standards here, but it has been three days and since this morning I feel ready to burst. I have to keep busy constantly. Whenever there is a lull, my dick demands attention and drives me crazy, or perhaps desperate describes it better.

My lovely wife hasn’t kept me locked overnight yet, but I doubt I can be trusted tonight. I just hope she doesn’t get upset if I do.