LilRob My Chastity and Denial Journey

Let me begin by noting that I am currently on day nine of my initial ten-day period in chastity and orgasm denial. Before this, it was only for a day or two at a time while we were playing around. This is a new development after 19 years of marriage.

For the past five to six years, my wife has allowed access between her beautiful big wet pussy and my little dick (I am just 4 inches erect) only twice a year—usually in May for my birthday and again around Christmas. Typically, I help bring her to an orgasm using either a vibrator or by rubbing my member against her, depending on what she prefers that day. It always begins with me rubbing it up against hers; if I am not getting close to making her come, she makes me use the vibrator instead. When it comes time for me to finish, I can jack off, or if she is feeling generous, she will fuck me by hand.

Initially, I used to get frustrated about lacking access to her pussy, but over time I have learned that this is what works for me. Chastity plays a big part in this since I am a chronic masturbator, doing it one to two times daily.

I would like to move toward long-term chastity and only be released when having PIV (penis-in-vagina intercourse), but she has some health concerns about that. Currently, how long I stay locked depends on rolling dice. She rolls two dice first, then a third which acts as a multiplier option. If the result is even, I am locked for 2 to 12 days based on the roll total. If it is odd, those two initial dice are multiplied together, meaning I could be locked anywhere from 2 to 72 days. On my very first ever roll, I was lucky and got a 10.

Regarding this current 10-day lockup ending 12/29/13: At day four or five, I felt extremely horny. It didn’t seem possible to last much longer, but somehow I pushed through with help from pre-cum soaked underwear.:oops: Some things I have learned so far in this short time are that the CB-6000S is really just a toy and not designed for long-term wear, or at least not for me personally. For the first couple of days, I was worried about people seeing it under my clothes, but now I am less self-conscious about it. I also initially tried to stop the lock from “clicking” because it would occasionally do so, but strangely enough, I have come to like that sound?

Day 9: I was allowed to take off the CB for cleaning and had a small setback. About thirty minutes after putting it back on, I felt an incredible burning sensation that hurt badly enough to require removal. I am not sure why, though I think I need to go down a ring size. I went without it for about four hours before putting it back on for the night without any issues. However, I woke up at 12:37 with my dick straining inside the cage. After things calmed down, I urinated. In the past, peeing at night did not disturb my sleep; however, I have learned that sitting and pushing the cage back so the end of my short penis aligns with the hole in the device seems to wake me up. Go figure? I went back to sleep and, almost like clockwork, woke up again at 3:38—about three hours later—with my dick straining once more. This time, however, it was a permanent waking since my usual work alarm is around 3:00. We shall see how today goes.

As a side note, a couple of days ago I reminded her about Christmas and asked if I would get PIV then. Her response was something like, “No, he needs to stay hidden until Vegas.” That does not happen until our 20th wedding anniversary in July, which is about 14 months from now since my dick has been inside her pussy last time. I know I will still be able to jack off when released. Thinking about it more, we haven’t fully worked through whether she gives me hand-fucking when I use a vibe on her while locked, or if I must remain strictly in the cage during those times.

I know my post is long; just using it as a journal that hopefully I can look back on years from now? Thanks.