Journals and blogs discussion

Some of you may already be aware that I am new to this place! I have been running a blog () but plan to share most of my experiences here on the community site. The blog will remain for condensed updates. There are several reasons for this decision.

1. The WordPress app for Blackberry is as slow as a dog with only one leg and a limp.
2. Chastitymansion is an incredibly interactive space. Within two days, I have received kind and supportive messages from many caring people. I never realized such a friendly community would share my kink and understand that I am trying to establish a cuck/slave dynamic where my partner desires me. So essentially, you can view this move as somewhat selfish on my part because I will receive more (some or any) feedback for my questions. I get recognition for my writing abilities, praise, and admiration (lol). Alternatively (and honestly), it is an entirely unselfish decision since I want to share my life with a broader community that might benefit from reading my words. So Hello and welcome into my world. I am married, have two children under the age of six, and live in west Berkshire, UK. I love my job and am doing reasonably well. I adore my wife deeply and we both know we are soulmates; our love is very strong. We went through so much s*it when we first got together that only unfaithfulness could have ended us. This would never happen, and while I don’t say ‘never’ lightly, it feels true to me. I feel it in my heart and soul. To me, Chastity is not about a lack of trust or being submissive; it is about honoring her. Enough of the serious talk… I have been interested in chastity since seeing them on some documentary when I was in my early teens. I graduated from university in 1990 and became an early internet adopter, surfing with a 14k modem (wow!!!) I discovered several resources about chastity and loved the concept; they weren’t just huge rusty medieval contraptions but were actually quite comfortable and very expensive. I married in 2000 but felt unable to share my interest. Although we did attend Erotica one year (which was mildly uncomfortable), our relationship has remained mostly vanilla since then. (I recall trying to take her to a cb2000 stand at the end of the show, but she wanted to go home and “didn’t get it”. When the cb2000 became available I bought one from eBay for about 40 quid (a bargain). I kept it secret and only wore it two or three times, but since I didn’t have a keyholder yet, I sold it again (for around 80 quid). I have fantasized about owning and wearing one ever since. Over the last six months, my partner and I have had more interesting sex and even experienced some little sub/dom fun. She has enjoyed straddling my face while talking dirty to me about being constrained in tight locked pants during our encounters. Only after she takes her pleasure does she release me. I love that scene in “Something About Mary” where she is sitting there watching TV and his head pops up between her legs! We have EVEN discussed getting a vibrator, so I secretly bought a couples duo love egg rabbit (based on a friend’s recommendation) as well as the rabbit premiere version (since my partner seemed confused about the whole egg concept). If either of these things scare her off, I will return them in their original packaging, unused (boo hoo). I love the idea of using a vibrator on her while leaving me hard (caged or otherwise). On these points, along with others, I see an opportunity to move towards a slightly more submissive role rather than pushing her into a slightly more dominant one. So… ten days ago I seriously decided to get a cb6000 (see my earlier post for the source). It arrived last Monday. I have been wearing it as much as possible, even sleeping with it on. I wear It to work, work from home with the keys on her keyring (swapping them between keyrings so she always unknowingly holds them), and even go out in the evening for a work Christmas party. I have wanted to show her ever since, but haven’t had the guts. So that covers me… And my history. Now it’s time to look at the near past and THE FUTURE…