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ever since we returned from our November trip, things have been a mix of good and bad. However, in recent weeks he has started having trouble with getting back into the cb, constantly complaining that it hurts. I just tell him to wear it, but he takes it off anyway. Sometimes I deny him touching me, which makes me angry, though he seems indifferent. Does anyone here have tips for making him listen and obey?

I know I mentioned a rocky period earlier in this thread, but we also had smooth stretches too. It feels like the rocks are back on our path, even if I don’t fully understand why. This Is How It All Started He wanted to experiment with a dog collar (which he attached to a ring), so he bought one as an anniversary gift. During that same week, he rigged it up so he could wear it around his cock while I held the remote.:jumping0046: It was fun watching him crinch when I set the levels high. Whether I wanted him nearby with the kids awake or not, he was there; those were good days:character0028::character0100:.

Later, for another milestone in our lives (I can’t recall exactly which one), he bought the cb. I found a box on my bed and asked “why?” He replied that we had discussed the idea and felt it was time to start. That night, I told him to put it on. Things were great:jumping0044: until he asked what he should call me. When I said “Madam,” I realized I needed a public-appropriate name for him instead of just using his first name or title, so that is how the nickname “boy” was born.

Now we are facing issues with the cb. He says it hurts:( and I can’t wear it either, even though he knows where the spare key is hidden and has removed it himself.:spider: This makes me feel just like a spider—angry and frustrated. He wanted this dynamic, but now he claims there are “ISSUES.” Am I still “the Madam” while he remains “the boy”? I enjoyed my control, but it seems to be slipping away from him. How can I get him back in line?

I want the cb ON and attached to his collar. My plan is that if he doesn’t put it back on soon, I will force him into one after the kids go to bed and take all the keys away. Since we live a seemingly normal life outside our home, this bothers me because people can tell when I am upset lately due to his lack of obedience toward my NEEDS. So what should I say when others ask?

I suppose I am here again to document how it began and where we stand now. I hope to keep this journal running for a while mostly without him, since these are MY posts:sign0066:. As noted at the end of my other threads:butterfly:, I like butterflies and purple, which suits me well.