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So here is my tale. For the past three years I have been using a lock, either on myself or through an online Key Holder, in fits and starts. My wife is aware of it but isn’t particularly interested; she ‘permits’ me to wear one when she travels for work, which occupied her full-time for two of those years (excepting every other weekend) and now takes up about four months annually during trips lasting 5-10 days. This schedule allows me to lock for shorter durations compared to the previous couple of years. It is somewhat conflicting because I wear it to deny myself orgasm while teasing my own head. My dream is permanent denial, and since my wife isn’t into sex much, I have gone extended periods without cumming as I attempt to stay denied whether locked or unlocked. The device feels like a natural part of me, an extension of my body; when it’s absent, there is a bit of phantom limb syndrome for several days. Previously I wore a CB-6000s, but its frequently broken parts turned me off. Now I use a Jack and Rose Steel unit with no breakage issues and the most comfortable clean experience yet. On this current trip, I have been locked for seven consecutive days, removing it about 10 minutes before she returns home on Monday. I’ve tried every method to hide the key: starting with an online KH who recently lost interest, tossing it out the window into the garden, mailing it to myself, and using combination locks. The best solution is simply willpower, though there is a subspace one can reach once the key disappears.

There you go, that is Emma’s story