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First off, thank you everyone for the advice given to my wife (Rubber Elle) in her thread… the referenced community page Since then she has kept me locked for ten consecutive days while we manage our opposite shifts and so on. It worked because she enforced the lock, forcing me to figure out how to keep it from pinching. Later on, she handcuffed me to the bed. Jailbird (which had some rust in its bottom locking mechanism that secures the PA to the device…WHOAH) took her turn with me and we really enjoyed ourselves. I assumed (as I have before) that after ten days of being locked up, the Jailbird would be put away for at least a couple of weeks. What I mean is, usually we take a break, allowing my testicles to drop back down from my stomach (they seem to hide there while locked) for those few weeks. But no… About 20 minutes before she leaves for work, she asks me to help with something in the back bedroom. When I walk in, she is standing there waiting with the Jailbird. I actually didn’t want to be locked (believe it or not). I just hadn’t had time to recover from the previous lock-down and was a “bit” sore because my nuts were under pressure of about “150psi” for 12 hours a day. I tried to wiggle out of it, looking forward to her being at work that night so I could relax with my “thoughts”. But she stuck to her guns and demanded that I be locked back up. What??? This is what I asked for right?? Now wanting to be locked is WAY different than being persuaded, encouraged, or threatened into it. The first six days of the initial lock-up (since she introduced herself here on CM) were a breeze. I WANTED, and even needed, to be locked. I was ready for a game. This time though, the game had just ended; let’s put it away (as we always do) for a while until we are both ready. Nope! She is ready, but I am not, and now I’m going freaking crazy! I wasn’t ready to be locked under her terms, only my own. This meant that in the past, it was mostly the latter part of the lock-up where I really pushed any limits while being locked. Meaning I had enough & wanted out. Now she has flipped the “chastity” dynamic to her advantage, effectively re-writing the rules in her favor. Day 3 of this second lock-up and it’s really getting into my head that I’m losing/lost control. This is empowering her, and for that reason, I feel more like a “submissive” with every passing minute. What a mind screw & the Holy Grail of any bondage game. I am now walking on the path of “chastity” I have been searching for under her control & her terms. Rubber Elle if you read this, lead me to your destination & be inspired by those in the community to deny me so that you may satisfy yourself. -I