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Hello everyone. I am new to this site but thought I would share my recent experience. My fiancé and I have been together about 3 years and have a very strong sex life. I have a bit of a problem in that regards as I really am always thinking about sex or trying to get off. We have sex almost every day sometimes multiple times a day. And I still find myself trying to either masturbate or get in another time with my girl which at times irritates her. We are getting married in about a month and she has talked about not doing anything sexual the month leading up to the big day including me playing with myself which I then said was impossible and the only thing that would guarantee that would be a chastity cage. We talked a little more about it every once in a while and I have always had a big fetish for being dominated and the more I thought about the idea her controlling my dick the more turned on I got and kept saying to her lets go to the toy store and check them out. Long story short we ended up finally going down and she completely embarrassed me at the store. I know I’m a little kinky but chastity is something that I would never want anyone to know. There were two different cages she had her eye on and after asking me about them with me not really being an expert and unsure she carried them to the counter. Purposely yelled for me to come stand next to her and asked the worker the pros and cons and about them along with making sure it was not escapable. Anyways I could have melted as they talked for about 30 minutes then she told me to give him the card and pay. Once we got home she told me she gave me many opportunities to not get one and since I kept insisting on getting one the last couple weeks and paid for it she is going to take advantage of it. Thursday night is the last day of sex before the cage goes on for a month and after the wedding it will become a regular part of our relationship and she says it will help me to start listening and helping her around the house more. Everything is still very new I tried on the cage and it seems to fit good but the idea of not being able to escape or cum is pretty scary for me. Any tips or thoughts from anyone would be appreciated I will keep you updated