Introductions discussion

“Hi….I just wanted to introduce myself since I am new. I just joined this past week. I have been contemplating chastity and trying to introduce it in my marriage but I am a little anxious how that will go with my wife. I haven’t been locked up but would love to give it a try. I am looking for the right device and thinking of ordering one soon. The thought of being locked up gets me so sexually charged that it is almost impossible to think straight. My other issue is that I have always been transgender as well. I tried to put my transgender issues on the side and live a normal life and got married. My wife knew about my femme side before we got married and was sort of Ok with it at first. But then we had kids and she didn’t want me to do any of that which was sort of understandable. But now the kids are older and in many ways my wife and I have grown apart. As we grew apart I began reexploring my femme side—going out in public etc. She goes from being angry to just shrugging her shoulders. It has also led to us being sexually distant….we have not had sex for over four years….in the meantime I have been playing with dildos and only cum from penetration.(she doesn’t know about this) I was hoping that maybe chastity would be the answer for us. It would be great if she put me in chastity and encouraged my feminization. I also have a submissive side to me which I would love to tap into and expand my efforts and focus in the relationship. In the same token I would encourage her to find a boyfriend for her own pleasures since I can not please or satisfy her in a way a real man can. I feel guilty about that and I want her to be happy. I would be willing to serve both of them but my main focus would be her. Likewise I would want her to hold the key although if she absolutely demanded I would be agreeable for her to pass on my key for her boyfriend to hold. I don’t know if any of you have any suggestions or places on the internet that give more information about these possibilities. I am a little worried about opening up to my wife about some of these possibilities because I worry she would leave me if she found out about my desires of having sex with men and being in long term chastity/feminization. I know in my previous relationships when I was younger, the women in my life would eventually leave me for real men because I was too feminine and they wanted a more “normal” relationship. On the other hand without us having any sexual intimacies for so long can eventually lead to a situation that she will decide to find another man anyway without any of this drama. I figured it is worth a shot. I have nothing to lose. We have started talking about an open marriage although she is kind of conservative about things and is still thinking about it. Thanks for listening. Liza”