Introductions discussion

Hi there, I’m Tim. A sexual enigma has defined my life so far. As long as I can recall, I’ve cherished being naked. My mother had a certain preference for men, and consequently, I witnessed things that perhaps shouldn’t have been seen. Panties are a great love of mine; they aren’t about becoming female though. The scent and texture of panties really appeal to me because wearing them makes me feel connected to the woman who wore them before. When dating someone special, her panties turn me on deeply, and even when she’s away, that connection remains strong.

Three years ago, I started tying up my balls and enjoyed it greatly. The lady who introduced me to this practice has since left my life, but she was gentle about the parting. Seeing photos of men in cock cages sparked an interest in having someone else control mine. So, I got one for myself and really like how it feels.

My current worry isn’t about being a cuckold per se; I have no issue with that if it suits you, but it’s not my preference because I don’t want my present partner to stray elsewhere. Also, the idea that wearing a cock cage makes you a sissy doesn’t resonate with me much—it seems like the main argument for using one is actually what I value: freedom from having control over my own release while caged allows me to handle household tasks and build anticipation until she returns home.

Do others feel similarly? Can anyone help explain these feelings of mine? Will she eventually take charge and ask me to wear it rather than always asking permission? Could this situation bite me in the rear end negatively, potentially pushing her toward a more traditional cuckold dynamic?

Just looking for thoughts. Thanks