rosieark Do I truly want this?

I’ve dabbled in chastity for about two years now. Internet fiction drew me in, and I eventually picked up a budget Chinese full belt as my first real piece of kit. It served as quite an introduction to the lifestyle. Once fitted properly, it was reasonably comfortable for short stretches (up to a few hours) and felt very secure. There was no risk of pulling out; escape routes were limited to either finding the key or cutting through the metal, which I didn’t really want while it was tight against my body. The main issues were: (1) it wasn’t suitable for long-term wear, (2) hiding it under summer attire was a bit tricky, and (3) it broke. Primarily due to issue (2), I switched to an HT V2, but even after several attempts, I couldn’t get used to it. It caused pain, the ring was difficult to apply, and there was a tendency for it to slip off my flaccid shaft, leaving me dangling from my testicles. A week ago, prompted by issue (3), I gave it another try. For reasons unknown, after wrestling harder than I recalled to get the ring over my balls, it finally sat right and felt quite comfortable. So I left it on for the entire day. Then through the night. In the morning, I unlocked it to remove the tube for inspection and cleaning. My scrotum was slightly sore where it had been trapped, but nothing severe. I locked it back up immediately. It stayed on all that second day and night with only occasional discomfort. The next morning, I put the keys away for 24 hours. That evening, knowing I wouldn’t be able to unlock until the next morning even if I wanted to, I showered without removing it. It felt like I could manage most daily activities without taking it off. The following morning, I took the tube out again to check everything was still fine. With no issues found, I locked it up quickly and set my keysafe timer for 24 hours. At that point, I realized my birthday was five days away. I decided to give myself a present by delaying unlocking until then—which meant not opening it early when the time came. So the next morning, once the initial timer expired, I reset it to run until 8:00 am the following day. My timer allows up to 99 hours, and my plan was to set it for 96 hours (4 days) on that subsequent morning. This felt daunting because the longest duration I had previously managed was just 24 hours. So today is the eve of my birthday. The timer currently reads 16 hours 11 minutes remaining, and I am eager for tomorrow’s 8 o’clock unlock. Well, at least part of me is. I have been wearing this device now for a little over eight days, with only two brief five-minute breaks for cleaning. I feel somewhat attached to it; one part of me doesn’t want to take it off yet. However, my intention is to remove it tomorrow morning when the time comes and enjoy a full day free. But then, at the end of that day, I plan to put it back on again—possibly with a smaller ring to see if that offers more comfort, as many here have suggested.