Chastity is not a habit that easily stops

In just a couple of days we’ll have been locked up around the clock for six months (with brief periods unlocked thanks to my wife). At first, if things didn’t work out, we agreed I could stop. That held true for the initial two months, perhaps extending slightly longer. But now we’ve reached a stage where returning to how it was before simply won’t do. To go back would essentially mean admitting that my regular ability to masturbate matters more than the massive improvements in our relationship. Granted, there are moments when I really want to cum and can convince myself it’s an acceptable trade-off. But I cannot use that reasoning with her. I’m not complaining at all. Everything is wonderful and our bond has improved greatly from both sides. Yet it strikes me as somewhat of a one-way street.