Journals and blogs discussion

I am going to start posting on this thread as my journal. I have introduced myself and told some of my story on other posts. I will sum up by saying that I got what I asked for, I have no regrets. I believe these choices have strengthened our marriage and filled the sexual void in both of us. I am a chaste, cuckolded, house servant, and am rewarded only by being granted permission to pleasure to my wife. She has had me locked for going on 3 months this time, but has no desire or plan to unlock me ever again. I cum only incidentally when I get too excited during times i am allowed to service my love with my mouth. My wife leads our marriage in every aspect. She gives me direction and expects to be obeyed. I am subjected to harsh spankings, while tied and gagged. I am not allowed safe words. She has been spanking me to teach me to be a better husband for the entire 6 plus years we’ve been married. She knows my limits better than me. I have only recently become a cuckold. My wife has now been on 5 dates in the past couple weeks. On two of those dates she had sex and came home early in the morning, exhausted, satisfied by much larger cocks than mine. One a third one, she made out and sucked his cock. She is staying in a hotel tonight and will come home to be licked clean before work tomorrow. I am tormented, and deeply in love.