Introductions discussion

Greetings everyone, I was recommended this site by Mistress Michelle, and I am so glad! Since the 90s, i have been learning to be submissive to my Wife, but chastity control only became a part of our relationship last June. It seems like i will be able to learn a lot from all you experienced folks here; just a quick look around showed me that others share the difficulties i have had with devices, and the research i did on some more effective devices was reconfirmed. While i am anxious to get started and learn more, i felt i should introduce myself. For the past couple of years, my name at home is sissy b, which grew out of my nickname. At first, i was sally, or sis sally, but that was difficult to use in public, though it came from the Sandra Bullock character in “Practical Magic”, one of my favorites and one that Wife also enjoys. Since b is her first letter from my male nickname, it allows Her to use it openly even though to my ear it sounds short for Bea or Beatrice. Though i was formally named by Her as sissy b, my friends or those wishing to be can just use b. As you may have gathered, Wife is not at all comfortable with any public display of my true sissy self, so i must hide in plain sight with a beard, male outerwear, and male body hair including a short haircut. She and i were married 43 years ago, when my male ego was still fighting my submissive soul, but it lost and i surrendered any vestige or appearance of being in charge after trying with all my might for twenty some years. After our children left for college, i broke down in tears, and begged Her to try dominating me. Although She had guessed my fantasy was Fem/dom and D/s from the porn i liked, She never had any cultural experience of this. She came from a male dominated home like the stereotypical American family; her father had been a drill instructor in the military, and the idea of a Woman in charge was unheard of, but She agreed to give it a try. When we go out, She prefers that i look masculine, sort of arm candy for Her, but i am expected to be obedient and thoughtful of others at all times, so most of the males i know think i am pussy whipped and have little to do with me. Though i fare better with her girlfriends, most think i am just a “great husband” because i help around the house as much as i do; they aren’t privy to the fact that i do all of the domestic chores on the schedule and in the exact manner as She directs, have no say in social, sexual or financial matters, and am subject to discipline that includes spanking, caning, corner time and writing lines among the punishments i have had to accept. Perhaps “no say” is too strong; i am allowed and expected to offer good advice when it is asked for, but key to our marriage is the absolute authority Wife wields and i obey. Fast forward another 25 or so years and find me doing most of the domestic chores - She will occasionally cook a meal if the mood strikes her - and she is much more familiar with leisure time. She and i worked hard to tame my ego and improve her self-confidence to the point where she accepts my submission. More than that, she expects it and has found new ways of pushing my limits and blowing my mind. Last June she spoke with a sex phone line Mistress to get some extra pointers on how to get even more out of me. Though i was allowed to listen in and respond to questions, most of the time i was gagged with her panties. When it comes to voicing my opinion, i have a difficult time realizing that not everyone wants to hear it, so it is not uncommon for me to lose my speaking privileges. One of the suggestions that Wife received was to join Fet-Life, where i heard about this site, and also to try putting me into chastity. While the device i got - the curve - turned out to have problems like the plastic around the pins on the tube side breaking and the device being hard to size and prone to chaffing the scrotum where the pivot pin of the ring sits, the idea of holding my key made her very pleased. Doubt that i’ll ever go more than a few days in one, but she has surprised me in the past, and it could be that, once she finds an acceptable unit, i’ll be a permanent chastity sissy. Since i initiated this into the dynamic of our relationship, i have been amazed at some of the changes that have taken place in her, such as finding out that she is a little bit of a sadist (which i wish were not true), and that she can be very exacting, which is good for keeping me on my toes. One of the privileges i get occasionally is getting on the computer to chat with my sissy friends and look at erotica, but today i am limited to one hour, so i had better sign off before i get into trouble. Looking forward to reading the wisdom offered here, i say hello to all of my fellow submissives in chastity and offer a deep curtsey with respect to all of the Mistresses here. b