Introductions discussion

I’ve recently joined the Chastity Masion forum, although have been into chastity - both self denial and denied, for the best part of 45 years ever since early in puberty I found I got almost more excitement out of denying myself an orgasm than actually allowing myself to cum. My first serious long relationship was with a partner who denied me most of the time, saying that sex didn’t really excite her or she was afraid of getting pregnat or any of a dozen other excuses, but then had affairs which (from her recounting) clearly thoroughly sexually excited her. I found that her telling me about these encounters really excited me and the fact that her descriptions always majored on her lovers being considerably better endowed than me and “knew how to use it” made me question my own equipment. I became concious that I am small - recently (admittedly frst thing in the morning, when Percy was shrivelled), I measured at just over 2”, and get to around 4.5” when really really excited. I have been in a long term and loving relationship with a faithful wife now for over 30 years. Once she reached menopause she found sex uncomfortable but still enjoys having regular orgasms using her Eroscillator, and I started self denying again rather than resorting to hand jobs which always seem second best. That resulted in me rediscovering the thrill of my partner having sexual fulfillment while I am left high and dry. This time though whilst she stays faithful! I have found that going longer and longer between orgasms leaves me on a constant sexual high which is reminiscent of being 17 again. I try to stop myself from masturbating as I just feel let down afterwards having lost that super plateau created by chastity. Over the last few years I have bought a variety of Chastity devices, and regret to say that the vast majority of them have been a total waste of money. Shoddily built and totally useless for anyone with a smaller than 6” dick. Pull out (or even drop out in some cases) is easy. The best ones have consistently been the Miller’s ones (CB2000, CB3000, CB6000 and CB6000S), all of which I have had. The CB2000 fell apart eventually, and the CB3000 split along the join. The CB6000S is the best as I two thirds fill it, whereas the others I only came half way down. I have tried the Stallion Guard (Painfull), Exobyte (both types - complete waste of money), Sentinel (too big and heavy - but looks good), Birdlocked and BON4 (both comfortable but bulky round the balls and can chafe the scrotum). Also various points of Intrigue and KSDs etc - gimmicky and unpractical for real use. My wife, although enjoying solo sex with me participating but never entering her, and after some persuading letting herself be selfish about it, has not really taken to the idea of me locking myself up and reluctantly tolerates me doing it provided she doesn’t see the device or be asked to hold the key - it’s all rather a let down. However I do still confine myself, particularly after I have been chaste for a few weeks, so that I can not make myself cum and spoil the sexual tension that has built up over that time. If you have stayed with me up to now with my personal story then firstly thank you, but secondly I’m looking for some advice. Firstly any ideas on better devices for small Penises? I literally two thirds fill the CB6000S which is the smallest sensible device on the market I can find. Precise measurements 7cm along the top, 5cm underneath up to my ball sac, 9cm around the glans. I’m not circumcised which makes Prince Albert type devices not as interesting / practical, and feel I would need to be both circumcised and pierced - a six month mission if undetaken! Secondly - how to encourage my wife (90% vanilla) to be a willing (and even enthusiastic!?!) keyholder, rather than me self lock? Oh - talking of me doing washing, ironing etc will not be a good persuader as we share out all the jobs and both enjoy the fact that we do share them anyway. Thats’s all for now Radical