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We’ve been exploring our sexuality here and there over the past couple of years, and OMG, have we tried so much and learned a lot about ourselves in that time…

We’ve had a loooong break for roughly the last year and a half - not from each other, of course, but from playing with others and experimenting with our sex life… We just needed to be ourselves again and enjoy being together without any distracting play or fantasies - just the two of us, nothing else.

It’s been good, and bad.

I definitely needed that break from sexual activities, but my husband has been aching during this time, which created a lot of tension between us.

A couple of months ago we had a serious talk about our sex life and decided it was time to do something again…

It took me a while to get my mind right. I knew I didn’t want to end up where we were last time - so I’ve been exploring my head for the past few months.

My husband is a sub, and he’s been eager for me to take control during this “time off” period. We had house slaves before, but back then we were both dominant; since then, he has discovered his own strong submissive side.

It was difficult for me to dominate him - I didn’t feel right about it, and I wasn’t sure what to do with it or where to take it.

I learned about chastity and instantly became attracted… but I’d only been playing around with the fantasies in my head.

My husband loves the idea of me being a “Hotwife” - I do too, up to a point - but I don’t want to harm our marriage. We’ve had some very bad experiences with this before:( (and some wonderful ones too!!!)

Yesterday morning I woke him up and asked if he still wanted me to dominate him? He agreed, of course - but looked a bit confused. I told him to go pee and wash himself properly, then return to bed to learn how his life was going to change from this day on… When he came back, I told him that I was tired of feeling “ignored” and tired of him searching for sex and porn elsewhere. So therefore - from now on, if he wants an orgasm or whatever, he has to get it from me only!!!!

He looked kinda like this::blink: He masturbates a lot… I explained that in the early days of our relationship, he really wanted to have sex with me. I was his main sexual interest; everything else didn’t matter much - so of course he gave me lots of attention and affection to make sure I was interested in him too.

Understandably, as the years went by, I’m not quite as interesting anymore, and he can easily get a kick out of flirting with others, browsing porn online, and masturbating to more exciting fantasies involving other new women. But when his only way to orgasms goes through me - I will once again become very important. And as his wife, I should be “the one and only” and remain his main sexual interest. Why settle for less?!?! He agreed totally:D

I told him that I would have to discipline him - not because he gets a kick out of it, or because it’s sexually satisfying for him (since I know he doesn’t like it at all) - and it would be with a whip. Then he really looked like this::blink: But he needs consequences for his behavior and mistakes, and this will have to happen so that I can make a clear statement. He asked me to involve cockolding in our life… and I agreed to do this again. I’m going to find a good-looking lover whom I can see whenever I feel like my husband is neglecting me … This should hopefully keep him on his toes:rolleyes:

We still don’t have a chastity device yet, but I told him to wear a cock-ring at all times so he (and the skin) can get used to wearing something constantly. Then hopefully soon we’ll find the right device - I think we’ll go for MM. But for now, he can get used to the idea of me being in total charge of his orgasms and set his mind on it before he gets locked up. I’m so excited, and he is too. Hopefully, this will be a wonderful, fun, and joyful journey that we have now started.

Miss Foxy