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Living the “chastity cuckold” life with my wife has reached an emotional intensity that both thrills and frightens me. We are approaching a “point of no return,” and I am seeking thoughts from this community.

Background: My wife and I met ten years ago. She posted an ad—her first ever—looking for a submissive man to be in a relationship with her. Having just emerged from a very abusive marriage, she was encouraged by her girlfriend to find someone who would worship and adore her. Meanwhile, I had endured several failed relationships because I couldn’t satisfy women within a vanilla dynamic. We both wanted cuckolding; she made it clear upfront that she wasn’t sexually attracted to me (meaning no interest in having sex with me). I introduced male chastity into the mix for subs like myself, and she absolutely loves it. She enjoys keeping me perpetually horny. Over time, my periods of wearing a cage extended longer and longer—up to six months at times. While her partners enjoyed oral satisfaction from me and engaged with many other men and couples, I endured long stretches without orgasm. This was tough for me but deepened both our feelings: hers as Domme, mine as submissive.

Current Situation: James has been my wife’s lover for several years now. Last year, she didn’t see him for a few months; her feelings for him were growing too strong, and her sex drive plummeted to near zero. She had other capable lovers during that time but simply wasn’t interested in them at all. My own sexual life with her dropped to zero as well, leaving us both miserable. This year, James and my wife reconnected, and we three decided to let things unfold naturally. His relationship has stirred up deep emotions within me—jealousy, envy, and more. I am documenting this journey on my blog as we build a polyamorous trio. The sexual intensity between them is overwhelming for all of us. I remain mostly in chastity, limited to assisting them during their lovemaking. There are plenty of arousal activities for me, but no touching or orgasms—just locked up.

My Problem: Their daily passion overwhelms me. It has been six months now with no sign of cooling down. My wife is constantly “cock-lustful” for him. When they go out as a couple (I tag along, wearing my heavy nose ring so everyone can see), their charisma draws people in; everyone wants to get to know them. I have become known among friends and family as her cuckolded husband: adoring yet impotent, unable to provide the sex she needs. Everyone accepts this because they don’t quite understand submission and chastity.

I have accepted my lifestyle with my wife. James is now her true partner; she is my Queen, he is my King. I am experiencing such intense “submissive cuckold” sexuality that I look forward to it every day. BUT… somehow, I cannot maintain a chaste state of orgasm denial. Unlike previous periods where denial was manageable, being with them has left me incredibly aroused. I feel deep jealousy toward the pleasure he gets from her—blowjobs and intercourse alike. She is filled with lust for him at all times and has never shown that same lust for me. She wants nothing to do with my penis; she prefers it locked up full-time, wanting me to be her personal eunuch slave. She loves the connection we share as Domme and submissive, feeding off my desire for her. She adores how I pamper and worship her.

And yet… despite all this, I feel a profound need to orgasm in a way I never have before. When they climax, the intensity hits me hard. I feel inadequate because I cannot inspire that same lust in her as she does for James. Over the past three months, she has allowed me to cum (in front of both of them) on occasion for the sake of humiliation value. I did so with great relish while sniffing a pair of her panties—the only way I’ve ever managed to come for her. After begging repeatedly, she finally let me go.

I look like quite a pathetic sight in his presence!

So here I am… feeling unworthy yet deeply submissive (to both her and him). We are creating a thrilling lifestyle with the best sex of my life, but I struggle to handle long-term chastity. I know I deserve it. Yet, out of jealousy and selfishness, I get cranky because I want to cum as frequently as they do.

How do you all manage this? marcus