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We began with the chastity device. I never imagined I’d be comfortable with it, even though it was my idea; I just figured it would benefit our relationship. Now I’m locked in a custom-made steel belt (a mature metal jailbird—a wonderful guy there and great craftsmanship)—sorry, let me get that out of the way. I am increasingly loving being submissive to my soon-to-be wife, whom I love deeply and would do anything for. For the first time in my life, I truly understand what it means to say, “I’ll do anything for her.” We have our issues like any real couple, but we work through them. That’s what makes us so compatible: we can sort out all the nonsense.

Anyway, back to where I started. For some reason, the whole cuckold dynamic really turns me on. I never thought it would, but when my mistress told a friend that her fantasy was being with two guys, ever since then I’ve gotten so horny at the thought of it—you know—being tied up while someone really gets inside her good. However, I do have some reservations. Yes, you read that right: I won’t let certain things happen, even though I am the submissive one in this scenario.

To me, kissing is more personal than just fucking; I don’t quite know why it feels that way—it simply does. So if we were to fulfill her fantasy (and now mine), I can’t allow kissing because I feel it would ruin the fun or whatever you’d call that quality. I just know I wouldn’t want to see it happen, yet I’m okay with having some guys’ cocks fuck my soon-to-be wife’s pussy while I’m tied up just inches away from it. Go figure!

I don’t quite understand what’s going on in my head, but suddenly I’m supposed to lick up my own cum after sex. I’m fine with that until the moment I actually come; then I’m like, hell no! I am not doing that. From what I’ve read, if you are forced to do it a few times, it becomes natural and you learn to handle it, so who knows? Maybe soon I’ll be doing just that.

For now, my worry lies with the cuckold aspect we were discussing about two days ago. She texted me today saying she got another guy’s number; she thought he was cute and told him about our idea, and he seemed okay with it. So this might actually happen! My feelings are mixed, but I’m still open to it as long as nothing happens without me there present and no kissing occurs. Is that how you’re supposed to do the cuckold thing? IDK—any insight would be great!

Sorry for rambling on with my poor spelling and messed-up grammar—that’s just who I am; if you don’t like it, move along… So, anyone here with real-life cuckold experience, let me know how it worked. Is it good? Does it cause problems in your relationship? Let me know! Thanks everyone.