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Ok, more than two days have passed since my Goddess locked me up. To start with a bit of background on her and I. We only met a few months back but connected really fast, and I shared my fantasies with her. She had never owned a pet before, but the concept intrigued her, and honestly, she has already surpassed what I hoped for and pushed my boundaries further than anyone else has.:anim_37: I don’t have much experience as a submissive, having been with women who weren’t quite so open-minded like my Goddess is. Beyond just wearing the chastity device, I’ve also committed myself to her by agreeing to take some compromising photos; if I ever misbehave, she will send them to my friends. It’s one of the Christmas gifts I gave her. The pictures aren’t taken yet, but she told me to be ready for them this weekend. We live about an hour apart, so weekends are usually when we get together. Also, I can’t express enough how impressed I am with my new Goddess’s skills as a Domme. Communication isn’t my strongest suit; I tend to keep my thoughts and feelings close to the chest, which I know is crucial for this kind of relationship to be happy and successful. Despite that, she has successfully drawn out many wants and desires from my guarded heart and put them into some of the most satisfying scenes I’ve ever had personally. But we both know we are just scratching the surface; as she pushes me further, I want to go even farther, and it seems mutual. Shortly after agreeing to give myself to her permanently, I jokingly mentioned that she might get more slaves to do housework. She told me she WOULD find another lesser slave (for lack of a better word) for times when I didn’t deserve to be unlocked. Then she said she loved the idea of making me suck off her other slave. I admitted I wasn’t crazy about it, but I would try. Her response was “You might as well get over that because you WILL suck cock and you WILL do it A LOT!” Wow! How do you even respond to that?!? Other than saying “Yes, Ma’am.” Honestly, if you asked me a week ago, I’d have said no way am I doing that. Now… let’s just say I’m going to try my very best to please my Goddess. Anyway, I found this forum while looking at the chastity devices and instantly knew it was somewhere outside our relationship where we could talk openly about our journey. I already admire some of the regulars. Goddess Jen, if you’re reading this, I adore your post because you remind me so much of my own Goddess, and I have a feeling the two of you will be in touch. You truly are an amazing Domme and partner in life; your pet/husband is very lucky. I hope my new Goddess and I can obtain that same level of love, trust, respect, and kink;) the two of you share. Anyway, I had a couple of questions. First, we bought two devices: the CB-6000 and, two days later, The Curve. When I first got the 6000, I tried putting the cage on (without any lube), and it was NOT happening. I couldn’t even get the tip in. Now, I was a little swollen but not hard after sex. Maybe with plenty of lube I could have forced it in when completely soft, but there would be no width space at all, even fully soft and cold. So, we bought The Curve thinking my CB-6000 was too small for me. When I tried putting that on while soft (no prior sex), it went on, but there is still no gap between the inside of the cage and outside of my cock; however, I only fill up a little less than half the cage. My length feels average at about 5 inches, but people tell me I’m thick in width. Whatever that means. Okay, so I have something that works. Until I get in the shower, when I can slip out of The Curve. Hmmm… still not really a deal breaker because, in my mind, it took being completely soft and soapy to pull out; if I’m doing that, I shouldn’t be thinking about jacking off anyway. So here I am tonight. I sent a picture to Goddess, and she said it’s too low and needs pulling up/fixing. I did that, then started getting aroused later on and filling the Curve completely but leaving a finger-width gap at the end. I’m using the largest ring now; it feels snug but allows me to FORCE two fingers inside. Maybe I need a smaller ring? Clearly, I don’t understand fitment well enough and really need some direction there so Goddess can ensure I am properly locked up. I know piercing is likely the way forward; I am very close to being willing to do that, although Goddess doesn’t like it. Plus, last time I got something pierced, the stud pulled through into the middle of my ear and became infected overnight. When they removed it at the emergency room, even with painkillers, sticking to my stomach was painful when they pulled it out. Ok, yes, I was a bit wasted that night, but I do get drunk from time to time. Anyway, hygiene is becoming a serious concern for me, so any direction there would be appreciated. I can take pictures if needed, though I try not to be that guy who sends photos of his cock to everyone he knows.:p Thanks in advance and hopefully I didn’t leave out too many words so you can make sense of all this.:sign0090: