Introductions discussion

Hello everyone! I’m a newcomer here. Just wanted to drop by, say hello, and share a bit about myself. I’ve had an interest in the concept of chastity for quite some time now, even bringing it up with my partner back then. Unfortunately, we eventually drifted apart. We engaged in bondage frequently before, which she seemed to appreciate (or at least claimed she did just to make me happy). However, due to various circumstances—though not a bitter split but rather a mutual one—we went our separate ways.

Last month I finally made the decision and ordered a CB6000 for myself. I’ve been gradually getting used to it;) and truly enjoying the experience.

However, being single meant I didn’t have a key holder initially, so I held my own keys. The problem was that I started cheating by unlocking myself when it interfered with my sleep, which often resulted in me masturbating:(. Freezing the keys didn’t help much because I knew all I had to do was run them under hot water for a few minutes to unlock them (I know this from experience:( ). So last week, I found someone willing to hold my keys for me. It’s strictly key holding—no other dynamics—but at least now I can’t cheat easily. As of Friday, I’ve lost control of my keys. On Saturday, I was told that my key holder rolled some dice to decide how long I’ll be locked up, but as an added challenge (edge play), the specific time won’t be revealed immediately. All I know is that one day within the next 2 to 12 weeks, someone will hand me back my keys.

I’m currently at Day 3 and Night 19 hours in, what a mixed experience it has been. During the day, things are usually fine; as long as I keep my mind occupied, everything is okay, and sometimes I even forget I’m wearing it. Nights are different… Once I get into bed, all I can think about is my locked member. When I do manage to fall asleep, I wake up a few times throughout the night. On the first night, I lost count of how many times I woke up, but after the fourth time, if I had held onto my keys, I would have released myself. The past couple of nights have been getting easier; I still wake up, though only a couple of times last night. I’ve discovered that when I do wake up, all I need to do is get out of bed and walk around the house for a few minutes until I relax enough to go back to sleep.

Sunday was quite difficult during the day. I was trying to take it easy (being self-employed means there’s always work looming), but I couldn’t fully unwind because my thoughts kept returning to my locked member again. If I had access to the keys, I would have taken them off. On the flip side, though, I am loving every moment of this; it has also made me realize how much I (or rather, did until now) masturbate and how often sex crosses my mind, even if subconsciously.

I hope this lifestyle stays with me for a long time to come.

Since starting my chastity journey, I’ve been searching for a community where I feel welcome and can share my thoughts. Hopefully, I’ve found that here. So hello everyone, and thank you for having me.