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I have an online mistress who has locked me up in a cb-3000 device for the first time, with one day left out of five total. I am so close to giving up because my balls are sore—not from the device itself but from being edged and receiving prostate massages. If I decide to be naughty and uncage myself, I risk a humiliating punishment. For each of the five days that I miss out on release, I have to swallow my load three times a day while on cam for her; if I do not comply, she has very incriminating pictures and videos to post online to humiliate me. Not sure what to do.. How do I relieve some of this sexual tension and ball ache without release or should I just bite the bullet and swallow up which I hate!!