Introductions discussion

She asked me if I knew what my answer would be in two months I told her that I already made up my mind. With a sly smile she reminded me that it would become our lifestyle, not just a game anymore. My heart was pounding out of my chest because I realized how my life would change if I said yes. What if I cannot last indefinitely without an orgasm? Am I ready to be submissive both in bed and outside? Will the thrill of the unknown fade away, leaving me as her slave taking orders? She made it clear that if I agreed then backed out, there will be no more orgasms from her anymore. Just me and my hand. No more BDSM games. No massaging ripe breast glistening with oil as I just finished doing. Could I resign myself to wearing panties instead of my regular underwear when she requested? Are you going to tell me or not, she wanted to know. I knew that I had two more months before I had to give her my answer but I wanted to tell her now, before I lost my nerve. Total unquestioning submission and very few orgasms, if she allows them at all. My body is still quivering from giving her her second orgasm in as many days as I massaged her breast and triangle where her legs meet. I did not need massage oil because she was wet, very wet. Her face contorted and her body tensed. I thought I was going to cum inside of my Cb6000s. I really felt like it was going to happen but it stopped. The feeling stopped at the precipice of pleasure. A new feeling of contentment and happiness washed over me and remain still yet. Now is the time to tell her, to let her know if my penis is permanently hers. To confirm that I will become the submissive rather than consent to it. Her gaze was stern as she told me to hurry up as I had a paddling due because I failed at a task twice in a row. My bottom still ached from her last disciplinary action. Could I take more and consent to a life of corporal punishment from now on. My body aches from want of an orgasm and yet I do not want one. The happiness would go away. I would no longer shiver at the mere touch of her hand. The long sessions of edging would be no more m Yes, I said yes I knew that you would. And she smiled as she pointed to the bedroom for my punishment.