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First off glad to be here For the last five to six years my wife has only granted my little dick ( I’m only 4” erect) access to her beautiful big wet pussy two times a year. It’s in May around my B-Day and again around Christmas. Usually I make her orgasm by a vibrator or rubbing my dick on her pussy based on what she prefers that day. It always starts out with my rubbing my little dick on it, and if I’m not anywhere close to getting her off she’ll make me use the vibrator. I get to orgasm by either jacking off or if she’s feeling generous she’ll let me fuck her hand. She’ll hold it on my dick while I lay on my back and if I want any stimulation I have to thrust my hips or basically fuck her hand. At first I used to get frustrated about not having access to her pussy, but over time I’ve learned to understand that this what I need. I’m a chronic masturbator at one to two times a day and require chastity to control my little dick I’d like to work up to long term chastity and only be released when I get PIV, but she has concerns about health issues. Currently my length of chastity is dependent on a roll of the dice. She rolls two dice and then a third. The third is a multiplier option. If it comes up even then I’m locked 2-12 days depending on the roll. If it’s an odd number then the two dice are multiplied so I will be locked anywhere from 2-36 days. On the first roll ever it was 10 days with my release this morning. My wife/KH went for a manicure this morning and released me to jack off. As soon as she left I couldn’t wait to jack my little dick. Cum erupted from my dick before I was even completely hard. It was actually anti climatic and my dick felt like it was missing something so I cleaned and locked myself back up. We actually never discussed the terms in regard to duration of release or how many orgasms I would be allowed to have before being locked back up. When she returned from her manicure. and after some brief conversation she rolled the dice. Came up a six and a five, she just giggled. Then she rolled one of the die and it was an odd number and she giggled even more and commented “That’s what you wanted” and gave me a kiss. Now I’m without an orgasm for 30 days with a release of January 28th