Chastity and orgasm denial discussion

Alright, so until Wednesday, I had been under my wife’s total control since November started. Most of that time was spent locked up, but all of it followed a no-touch rule. Last week, especially the weekend before, I found myself being highly cranky for no clear reason. It felt like I was the proverbial pressure cooker. On Tuesday night, she relocked me because she was traveling away on Wednesday and wouldn’t be back until later in the week. When I got home from work on Wednesday, I started really wigging out. Creeping panic, cold sweat, the works.:( It got so bad that I would have taken a hacksaw to the lock just to get out. Instead, though, I explained my situation to her, and she let me have the code for the lockbox with the keys inside, which allowed me to unlock myself, take a break, and blow off some steam. The next few days, the idea of chastity and submitting didn’t appeal to me at all - although cravings are slowly coming back. Does anyone else have similar experiences? How did you get through it? I’m actually somewhat disappointed, even though this is the longest period I’ve ever been controlled like this. Or maybe we just need to accept that my fantasy of long-term chastity doesn’t translate perfectly into reality and instead take these short breaks while suspending disbelief during the periods I’m locked up? Anyone here living out their chastity in a similar way?