Beginning and Ending

When do people usually slip up? Ironically, I find it easier to stop the wanking when my libido is a bit higher. When anxiety hits, I use that late-night release to lower tension. But after too long without one, it stops being both useful and fun. Diminishing returns, probably. As noted elsewhere, insomnia has been rough lately, making it hard to break out of the cycle. I managed a couple of days of abstinence before slipping back in, which left me unable to sleep until 4am. This led to about four consecutive nights of terrible rest and extreme irritability. We don’t often use devices, so I mostly rely on my word. To help beat this rut, I’ve been relegated to a spare bedroom further away from the main house for a few nights at least. The idea is that I can stick to my honor system there. Part of the reasoning is better sleep since we have young kids and it’s quieter. We also hope adjusting my night-owl schedule closer to her morning-person routine might help. It’s a bit more decorative, though; being sent there feels somewhat erotic but also slightly anxious for me. My wife says I can text her and admire from afar for now. I shouldn’t worry too much since our sex life is improving recently, just not on weeknights. We’ve talked about getting a chastity device. Let’s see what happens.