Smiff His Knees, Her Needs

I’m unsure of exactly when my interest in chastity started. It was likely late 2008 when I stumbled upon it, but the groundwork for such an intense desire had been laid long before that. College is where I really began looking at porn – because it was the first time I had easy access to it. I watched and browsed a lot of “regular” porn, but as I discovered different variances and fringes, I became extremely interested in sexual power and submission. That submission was exciting for both sides, male or female. As I explored my own desires, I found that female power and male submission were much more intoxicating. One college experience stands out: trying to hook up with a girl who lived in my dorm. She guided me to go down on her, and after she came, it was over. No reciprocation for me – just an aching erection and an addictive need for more. That was a one-night deal I wish I had pursued further. She pushed buttons I didn’t know I had. After my first year of college, I met my wife. Like most new couples, we enjoyed an amazing sex life in the early years. Ours is still better than average (if my buddies are honest about theirs). Sometime during all that, I found Literotica’s Loving Wives section. My fantasy world was – and remains – filled with my wife as the star of countless stories I read there. While my wife had long known I harbored a desire to see her with other men, we’ve only recently begun sharing that fantasy during sex. The lust and passion in those sessions is unbelievable. Like I mentioned, somewhere along the line I learned about male chastity. I ordered a CB-2000 and, after months of angst, introduced her to the concept with shaking knees. The CB-2000 was horrible (compared to what’s available now). I couldn’t wear it for extended periods, and she had no clear idea of what I wanted from wearing it. It was completely my fault for not preparing her (and myself) more thoroughly. Then came the CB-6000, which split after not much wear. I also turned her off to the idea because multiple times when trying to get started, I would “turn into an ass” when real life didn’t align with my fantasy. Again, completely my fault. Never one to give up, I’ve added a Mature Metal Jailbird, a Holy Trainer, and most recently a Birdlocked Mini to the box of toys over the past few years. There have been several false starts in the last 2 years – some me, some work-related, one her. I knew it was time to do this once and for all. So with that in mind, I started wearing my MM JB on my own for about a week to get the initial discomfort over with, wore my HT to work to navigate security, and ordered the BLM because well, I just had to! On Friday, I proposed a deal: buy something she wanted badly in exchange for making a commitment to be her keyholder. She agreed and took the keys! That night we had amazing sex (and she let me orgasm – begin counter now ☺ ). The next morning I was locked in the BLM because of a stint at work that requires getting through security. To help ensure we both have a solid foundation on the basics of male chastity and that she is informed enough to ask the questions she needs, I’ve given her a copy of Sarah Jameson’s book. Not that she doesn’t have a pretty good idea from trying over the years, but it’s a level-headed introduction to vanilla male chastity, and I think it will serve us well. We agreed to try full-time male chastity until mid-November and then discuss whether we want to continue from there. I sincerely hope she decides that she could never go back to the way it was before she locked me up for good! No rules, no contract, no topping from the bottom – just “she decides.” Nothing else has changed. Although I did offer to take one of the chores as a thank you – she chose laundry. I’ve always pulled my weight around the house and certainly don’t mind (maybe some of that extra time will benefit our chastity lifestyle!). The other women on this forum could be good mentors for her, so I hope she joins us. Feel free to comment. I plan to use this as a journal to help deal with the changes coming and to give Nicole a coherent look into what’s going on in my hormonally charged mind. Looking forward to the journey!